Friday, August 9, 2013

21 Week Update!!

How far along: 21 sweet weeks :)  

Total weight gain: 6lbs :/ 
Baby Names: Still stuck and haven't had a moment to talk about it. 
Sleep: Great. Everything wakes me up and having to pee each time is a must but no more crazy dreams!   
Best moment of this week: Going back to my old trusted Doctor E. It was a hard decision to switch back but we are glad we did. It's hard to build trust with a new doc after seing the same one for 10+ years. 
Miss anything: A beer. No, I am not a drunk or do I even have one beer a month but with the heat here in Florida a Bud Light Lime and a trip to the beach sure sound nice. 
Movement:  Tons! Last night was crazy and I think I felt baby on the outside!! All day today baby has been active and I am loving it!
Food cravings: Nothing really this past week. Umm I would love a smoothie though.  
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing still :)
Gender: Still nopers. 

Labor signs: No No NO!
Belly button in or out: Innie        
Wedding rings on or off:  On everyday but my engagement ring is too snug. 
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy happy happy :) 
Looking forward to: Duck Dynasty and Breaking Bad to start back up! Oh and Saturday I am going to a sweet chocolate shop and getting a tour of how they make everything. If it goes good and it's yummy I will tell you all about it. 
Photo of the day is James driving his truck on baby belly... 

Bye for now friends!! 

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

20 Week Update!!

Yeah yeah so I missed last week...oh well :) 

How far along: The big 20!! Half way to a full term baby!! I swear everyone I know has the slowest pregnancy's but mine are in fast forward :)  
Total weight gain: Not sure, but I don't feel heavier and everything still fits the same.
Baby Names: We have no boy names picked yet but for girl we both like Katie :) 
Sleep: Doing great on sleep now that James is not sick. I still have to get up to pee but otherwise good.  
Best moment of this week: Steve took a day off! We did nothing and it was great. I sure miss him being around (works two jobs now). 
Miss anything: Sweets. I have cut most out in attempts to keep gestational diabetes at bay this pregnancy. 
Movement:  Yes yes yes!!! When I am not chasing my toddler or busy around the house the baby is now making itself know and I love it.  
Food cravings: Oranges, grapes and chocolate milk :) 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope, I'm great!
Gender: Don't know. Tech was unable to get a good view. 
Labor signs: No No NO!
Belly button in or out: In as ever.          
Wedding rings on or off:  On and almost every day (means I got dressed that day).
Happy or moody most of the time: I have been good. Normal emotions lately, thank goodness. 
Looking forward to: Switching back the doctor that watched over us during my last pregnancy. 
Photo of the day is James trying grapes for the first time... 

Bye for now friends!! 

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

18 Week Update!!

How far along: 18 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: No change :)   
Maternity clothes: I need to change this question...The answer is yes and will be for a while.  
Sleep: Trouble falling back asleep and lately my mind goes to sad and dark places relating to my Dad. Like the day he died :( Keeps me up and crying most early mornings. 
Best moment of this week: Not sure...this week had bee off...I have had a lot on my mind with my sleep troubles and some issues with the baby that I will tell you all about tomorrow. 
Miss anything: Ummm pregnancy related...sweet stuff. My teeth get super sensitive during pregnancy and so many things send me into tooth pain. 
Movement:  Nopers. But today my Midwife could hear it through the doppler thing. 
Food cravings: Fruit and cold stuff still! 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing. Amen. 
Have you started to show yet: YES! This is another question to change because once you pop you cant stop :) 

Gender: Tomorrow is the big day. To know or not to know...Still thinking of having them write it down so if I want to know I can peek :)
Labor signs: No No NO!
Belly button in or out: Totally in.                
Wedding rings on or off:  Yes. Had a few days it was tight but if I watch my water they slip right on and off.  
Happy or moody most of the time: Emotional! Everything make s me cry, happy and sad. Today I got sad because Ethan our pre-teen has a friend spending the night and I felt bad for baby James because his brother wasn't playing with him. 
Looking forward to: Tomorrow. Right now I can't see past it. 
Photo of the day is my sweet baby waiting so good for the Midwife today :) 

Bye for now friends!! 

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

My James

Here is my baby boy...
He makes me laugh all day!!

17 Week Update!!

How far along: 17 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: No change :)   
Maternity clothes: For sure :) 
Sleep: Still having trouble falling back asleep once woken up and that's usually to pee. 
Best moment of this week: Hands down 4th of July! Though Steve was working we still enjoyed the day with family at Wekiva Falls!! We cooked hamburgers on the grill and spent lots of time in the water (in between rain showers). Only bummer of the day was I only took one photo, for the record it was a great photo at least. 

Miss anything: Would have been nice to have a glass of wine on the 4th :) 
Movement:  Still no :( I have begun to beg the baby every night with no luck.  
Food cravings: Fruit and frutie things.     
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing. Amen. 
Have you started to show yet: For sure!! People notice now and I love it. 

Gender: I am sure now that I do want to know but I don't know when. Not sure if I want to know at the ultrasound or have the tech write it down for me to look at some day closer to delivery. 
Labor signs: No No NO!
Belly button in or out: Totally in.                
Wedding rings on or off:  On everyday this past week.    
Happy or moody most of the time: Still emotional though I have done well to hide my tears from everyone. When I cry around James he laughs at me...I love him!
Looking forward to: Now don't go feeling bad for me when I say this but nothing. I have no plans yet for the week other than Midwife visit next Wednesday. 

Bye for now friends!! 

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

16 Week Update

How far along: 16 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: No change :)   
Maternity clothes: You bet ch!! 
Sleep: Not really...I wake at the littlest things and than can't fall back asleep.  
Best moment of this week: Spent Sunday afternoon wit some friends. Our kids all played along great and we went swimming and had pizza! 
Miss anything: Nothing pregnancy related...just my husband. He as been working a ton lately to provide for all of us which I am so so great full for but sometimes I just really want him here.  
Movement:  Not yet :(   
Food cravings: This week it has been still super cold things like my popsicles.    
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still nothing here.  
Have you started to show yet: I think people will start noticing soon because I sure do. 
Gender: Still not going to least not telling anyone. I am still on the fence if I want to also wait or find out early. I really think it will help me to bond and feel more connected because I am so busy with Ethan and Jimmy that I sometimes forget I am with child. 
Labor signs: Lord no! 
Belly button in or out: Still in :)                       
Wedding rings on or off:  When I do get out of the house I can still easily slip them on.   
Happy or moody most of the time: This week I have been emotional. I think because I miss my hubby and want his help here at home.  
Looking forward to: Tomorrow!!! The 4th of July :) and it also happens to be Jimmys half birthday and my totally fav holiday! 

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

15 Week Update!

How far along: 15 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: I think around 5lbs but sometimes it's only 3lbs. So whichever I am doing well. 
Maternity clothes: Yes but nothing new in the wardrobe. I hope for a new shirt this weekend!  
Sleep: The dreams seem to have eased up thankfully but I am still having to pee midnight.  
Best moment of this week: Hands down Jimmy's first hair cut! I was so hung up on having it done at Disney and as cool as that would have been I was even more thrilled to have Steve's Dad (used to Barber) do it! He knew exactly what to cut without me having to say a word. It was wonderful and turned out perfect. 
Miss anything: Not this week :) 
Movement:  Nothing I can feel yet. 
Food cravings: Stuff that is really cold or frozen. I am still eating lots of watermelon everyday and now I have added pop-sickles and ice ice ice cold water.  
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nopers :) 
Have you started to show yet: Only I can tell still.  
Gender: Would you believe we are not going to find out!! Crap, right? Well after much thought I gave into Steve's desire to wait. I figured  it's only fair being we found out with Jimmy and this is out last baby. But oh it is going to kill me to not know! 
Labor signs: Thank God no! 
Belly button in or out: In. With Jimmy it got close but never popped, than again he came at 34weeks 5days.                       
Wedding rings on or off:  I have been home most of the last week so I have not had them on but I think so :) 
Happy or moody most of the time: Still fighting off a bad case of being lonely but learning to get used to it. 
Looking forward to: Going to Sams Friday. Yup, I do think that is going to be this weeks highlight. 

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Prego 14 Week Update!

How far along: 14 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: Well...went to the Midwife today and found out I am up 5lbs. Guess that's okay for now but we would only like a 20 pound gain over all.  
Maternity clothes: Sure am. I scored a cute pair of pants from a consignment store that looked great for the first few hours of the day but as time went on they now look all stretched out and too big. Bummer. 
Sleep: Still have to pee midway through the night and dreams are crazy. 
Best moment of this week: I enjoy the busy weekend with family for sure but the best part was today! We had a visit with our Midwife and heard the babies heartbeat. So comforting.  
Miss anything: Staying up late. Now the clock hits 10 pm and my eyes are closed. I loved staying up with hubby after the kids went to bed to watch movies together. 
Movement:  I was almost sure once but it never happened again. So still no but soon I hope.  
Food cravings: Salad still and watermelon!  
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still thankfully nothing. 
Have you started to show yet: Not to other people yet. 
Gender: Still don't know but Midwife gave us the orders to schedule our one and only ultrasound for four to six weeks from now! 
Labor signs: Not at all!
Belly button in or out: Still in :)                       
Wedding rings on or off:  On for now but this morning before our appointment my rings were super tight and I had just put them on. As the day went on they got back to normal.  
Happy or moody most of the time: Still both I think. I am at the point where I think all my friends no longer like me and I am not good enough for my husband. A.K.A. a big case of the insecurities. I had it with James too and it passed so I know it's all in my crazy prego head. 
Looking forward to: A slow week, I hope. 

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Prego 13 Week Update

How far along: 13 weeks baby!! 
Total weight gain: 3 pounds but it goes down during the day. 
Maternity clothes: Yes and it's time to get more because my regular clothes make me just look fat. 
Sleep: I have to get up every night to go pee and I toss and turn all night trying to be comfy. Oh and the wild dreams! 
Best moment of this week: Celebrating 4 great years married to my best friend!! We didn't do anything fancy but spend time together just us. 
Miss anything: Wine and staying up late. Now a days I can't keep my eyes open past 10pm. 
Movement: Oh no...the baby just formed reflexes but I am thinking in a few weeks or so. 
Food cravings: Salad, any kind and I really want frozen fruit pops too. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope!
Have you started to show yet: I notice when I am nude! 
Gender: Don't know yet. Steve says he doesn't want to know...but he said that last time too ;)
Labor signs: Lord no!! 
Belly button in or out: Very much still in.
Wedding rings on or off:  Still on!
Happy or moody most of the time: Both I think. I sure do have my moments this time where I catch myself being a B and have to take time to relax. Which is odd because with James I was happy and laughing all the time. 
Looking forward to: A very busy weekend with family and friends! 

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

We Are Having a Baby!

We are using a Midwife this time around so we will not have an ultrasound to share until around 20 weeks unless we break down and go to one of those Ultrasound Boutique places. 

I will be 13 weeks tomorrow and hope to update every week at the least with how things are going. 

Thank you for following and sharing this with us. 

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Letter To Dad


I miss you so so so so so so much. September 7, 2012 feels like yesterday and sometimes feels like you have been gone for so long. I think about you often and wonder what you are doing and where you are. Are you looking over me today or with Mom? Are you spending time with Grandma and Grandpa? Do you get to see Jesus often or is He always kinda busy? I know you haven't been gone very long but wow, the things James has learned! A week after you passed he started crawling!! A dam week...I know how bad you wanted to see that. I wanted so bad for you to be able to hang on just four more months so you could have see your 60th birthday and James' 1st. Dad can you believe he started walking at 11 months!? He really is amazing! I think about that day when you were sitting with James and I heard you tell him "your mom will tell you all about me one day." Oh how I wished I didn't have to. I wish you could teach him all the things you taught me. Daddy I will tell him all about you. I will tell him of the time we ran from the rain in the orange grove and how we would carefully follow in your footsteps around and up the huge sand piles and the many weekends we spent on the boat and how you used to read to us the songs out of that old book. I will tell him of the days at the table we would just spend talking about everything and nothing. I will tell him how much joy he brought into you life. I will tell him you love him so much. 

Gosh Dad....some days the tears flow more than others. Today is one of those days. I really wish I could talk to you. 

I love you. We all love you. 

This photo is from a few weeks ago but I know you will love it. XOXO

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Wordless Wednesday

Even with that serious face he loved his first trip to the splash park at Sea World!

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Pregnant Me

I loved being pregnant. From day one till the end it was fun. Because it was hard to conceive I remember wishing I for symptoms just to reassure myself that a baby was still cooking in my oven. I had none First trimester came and went with noting but the uncontrollable need for sleep. We even took a vacation to a friends cabin in North Carolina. I could sleep anywhere and I did. Best place to catch a nap was at work, it was quite, cold and I had a partner that had my back and never told the boss. 

The second trimester for me was also a breeze. Baby was growing right on track based on ultrasound measurements. I was on track for healthy pregnancy weight gain and my blood pressure was always where it was supposed to be. Again no symptoms and I got my energy back too. I did have a taste for gummy bears, HiC Orange, and anything chocolate-banana flavored. I loved how people noticed my belly. I know they say it's never ok to ask a woman if she is pregnant, but I loved it. Strangers too :) it always made my day and I never minded if people wanted to give the belly a rub. I wanted to share this wonderful time with the world :) And when we found out the gender it made it seem so real! 

At the beginning of my third trimester I was given the gestational diabetes test, the one where you drink the thick tang flavored sugar water an have your blood drawn an hour later. Wen the results came in my numbers were a little high so the doctor had me take it again this time it was mane blood drawls and it took hours. The news came back high again. I had Gestational Diabetes and was put on a strict diet and had to test my sugar four times a day. The baby began to grow very fast and my doctor was worried about the size of the baby and I was too. Even though I was huge, I still felt great. I had my baby shower Dec. 3rd, which was the best one I had ever been to in my opinion. Other than a cold I caught everything seemed well. I attended two Christmas dinners and took some time out of work over the Christmas week to "play" with the baby things we received and even nested a bit. We were planning to have our son in six weeks.  

One year ago today January 3rd, 2012 my husband and I laid down in bed with not a clue of what was to come. 

To be continued... 


I Have A Follower!!

I Have A Follower!! Ok, ok so she is one of my very best friends...and I have not told anyone about this bog thing...but still she cares enough to want to know when I post something!!

XOXO (you know who you are)

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Getting Pregnant

Getting pregnant for me was not easy. The trying to conceive process for me was filled with surgeries, tears and lots and lots of prayers. 

My husband is nine years older than me and he already has a son so we knew we wanted to grow our family right after we were married in June of 2009. I had read all about my cycle and knew my body the best I could. We ate right, cut out the caffeine and had lots of sex. I had a cancer scare the year before we were married but everything seemed to be on the up and up. 

After a year of trying I began to have horrible pain associated with my periods. So bad that I ended up in the ER for pain. The doctors did their very best to manage the pain for me but nothing worked. I had a CT and ultrasound and it was decided my gallbladder needed to come out. So I was first one on the operating table the very next morning. The surgery was a "success" in that it was removed perfectly but my pain did not go away as expected. Over the next few days in the hospital the pain subsided as it always did and I was sent home with a narcotic RX and a follow up appointment. 

A month later the pain was back. So I was than treated to an Upper Endoscopy and a Colonoscopy. Joy. The new diagnosis was an ulcer and was given a new RX to manage it. Well what do you know the pain came back again. :( So I took matters into my own hands and went to Dr Google. I searched my symptoms and guess what? It did not tell me I was dying. I found that I had Endometriosis. This was devastating to me because everything I read said it would be very hard to conceive a child if I was able to at all. 

Everyone was getting pregnant. I had three close friends and other woman I knew were making babies the old fashioned way. I felt like I had no one to relate to. No one to share the pain and guilt I was feeling.

So armed with this new knowledge I went to meet with my GYN. I explained my symptoms again and everything I had been through with the other doctors and told him we had been trying to make a baby and he agreed that Endo was the most likely cause. So we made a plan. My very supportive husband went and had his little swimmers tested and I was to have another surgery but this time it was exploratory because Endo is diagnosed by symptoms and the only sure way is to have laparoscopy surgery and remove what is found. 

During this lap the doctor removed "junk" (my word for it) from everywhere in my belly :( one of my tubes was so covered in it that it took longer than expected to "clean me up." I felt great after recovering and the pain was gone! So back to the business of baby making we went! 

Just a few months later the pain was all back. My GYN than referred me to a specialist 3 hours away. He also happened to deal in infertility. 

This new doctor was great and totally understood everything I told him. He also informed us that given my issues we only had a 3% chance of conceiving on our own. So we made a plan and it started with another LAP surgery for me. This doctor also removed a ton of junk and was surprised how much had come back in only six months. 

The next step for us was medication and an IUI. I was put on Femera (to grow more and better eggs) and when the doc ordered I was to give myself a HCG shot (to let my eggies go free). We were so hopeful. Two weeks after the IUI I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. Now keep in mind the infertility treatments are not covered by insurance so it was a huge financial gamble for us. I cried and cried and cried. I AGAIN felt my body had failed me. I had failed my husband. 

But Steve was so very supportive and we decided to go again! So we went! Made the drive three times a week for one week and twice the next. He made his deposit, I took my meds we had another IUI. Two weeks later.....negative. This was now the end of February 2011 and we were still not pregnant. 

We began looking into adoption and fostering to adopt but it was even further out of financial reach than what we were doing. What about IVF, well that was also way too much for us. So we decided to try IUI one . more .time.  

So March we did it all again. The meds, his deposit, the long trips and the IUI. Two weeks later...negative. 

I was done. He was done. Our family and friends were just as sad as we were. I even had a friend offer to carry a baby for us. We needed time. Time to breath. 

In May Steve was involved in a bad accident at work and had spent much of the month home on workers comp. June came and I had not gotten my period. I KNEW there was no way I was pregnant so to be sure something else wasn't going on I took a pregnancy test so when the doctor asked if I was, you know, I could say nope. was a very faint positive. The kind where you wonder if you let it sit out too long or maybe it was just an old test or a lighting issue. So I told no one because I had a false positive before and I could not put anyone through that hope again. I waited a week...June 6, third wedding anniversary. The test was with out a doubt, scream from the rooftops, slap your mama POSITIVE!!! 

Steve and I met for dinner that night after work. I waited till we were done eating and walking to our cars to tell him "I think I'm pregnant!"  

The next month we went to the doctor to confirm and given everything we had been through they did an ultrasound and sure enough we were having a baby!! Due February 10, 2012!!!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

I Have A Blog!!!

Let me start out by saying I am not a that I mean I am not a great speller and my grammar is well, not good. I'm sure I will misuse there, their and that other one. Guaranteed to not begin a paragraph where needed and most certainly will over use , and ... . But with the help of spell check and lots of practice I hope to get better in time.

It seems we are in a time of Blogs. Every one has one. And they are all about so many different things. Mine is going to be about all things ME. As the saying goes, the good the bad and the ugly. I hope to make you smile, laugh, think, talk and maybe share in a sad moment with me.

Thank you for your time : )